A poem my mom found that I wrote in 8th grade. I read it and cried. Hit me straight to the heart.
I am.. Happy
I have cried,
I have known happiness, And sadness, I am me.
I know..that I have to live to tell.
I believe…that life teaches us many lessons.
I see..that life is difficult and that we have to fight for what we want.
I’ve met…people who don’t understand the value of life.
I have heard…the sounds of nature.
I tend… to think how ironic life is.
I’ve seen…how bad is to hurt other people.
I want…to always live happy.
I realize…that my family and true friends are very special to me.
I understand..that we have to value what we have in life, before life takes it away from us.
Powerful Speech-Words are articulated so well and many lyme patients can relate to this.
We are here! Tell your story!❤
Lyme has given me superhero powers without the powers
I fear noone or anything
I sometimes feel like a superhero,push myself out of my comfort zone.
So what if I feel pain, just do it!
I walk as if I own the world
Scared of no situation life throws at me
Not afraid of anyone or anything
Made me tougher,stronger,wiser
I have no sympathy for stupid problems
Oh your stressed about a test?, who cares! Atleast your body is not in constant fight to be strong, to act normal everyday.
My everyday is an act.
I am an actress,standing,walking pretending I am fine.
Trying to look as normal as possible.
No pain here. I am fine.
I should win an Oscar…
And Where is my cape?..
Who says NYC is filled with horrible rude people?!
I have been taking a taxi from port authority everyday to work since going back to work from maternity leave. Trying to take it easy on my body as I transcend back to the work commute.
Everyday on my way to work, I grab a taxi. Most taxi drivers say a quick hello, or no hello at all as they drive to my destination. Today was different. This taxi driver started mouthing off about how NYC police officers stop taxi drivers for no reason, I quickly changed the tone of the conversation. I told him how easy it was for him to write a book with all the crazy taxi driver experiences he has on a daily basis. We then shifted the conversation and started talking about life. I told him you get what you give, your good you get good, and vise versa. I told him “the worst is when good things happen to good people” and he says “those are tests”, he says. “Tests to change you”, the same thing when good things happen to bad people, those are tests so that they can change”.
Tests..tests..tests..I thought I would be over with tests by the time I finished college, but tests are a part of life in all aspects. You fail a subject and you have to keep trying again. Same thing with life, you fall and you have to get back up again, there is NO other choice.
I guess the taxi driver liked my positive attitude and conversation that he charged me less than the meter and even stopped the meter for me..and he blessed my day.
I can’t believe it has been a year since I last updated my blog. Alot of changes and positive things have occurred. I had my first baby 3 months ago. If it wasn’t for my lyme symptoms, pregnancy was such a breeze. My labor was also a smooth process. I pushed my baby out in 11 minutes (world record?!?), don’t mean to brag, but I am proud of that.
During pregnancy, I had to lower my dose of antibiotics to protect the baby, and luckily he is lyme free. The recovery after labor was the hardest for me. My lyme symptoms came out in a way I have never experienced before. I am now back on a new protocol, feeling much better but still dealing with symptoms.
I keep fighting for the old me, she will be back and hopefully soon (so that I can run with my baby when he gets older).
A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you’re fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true