Category Archives: Ramblings

Taxi Driver..

Who says NYC is filled with horrible rude people?!

I have been taking a taxi from port authority everyday to work since going back to work from maternity leave. Trying to take it easy on my body as I transcend back to the work commute.

Everyday on my way to work, I grab a taxi.  Most taxi drivers say a quick hello, or no hello at all as they drive to my destination.  Today was different. This taxi driver started mouthing off about how NYC police officers stop taxi drivers for no reason, I quickly changed the tone of the conversation. I told him how easy it was for him to write a book with all the crazy taxi driver experiences he has on a daily basis.  We then shifted the conversation and  started talking about life.  I told him you get what you give, your good you get good, and vise versa. I told him “the worst is when good things happen to good people” and he says “those are tests”, he says. “Tests to change you”, the same thing when good things happen to bad people, those are tests so that they can change”.

Tests..tests..tests..I thought I would be over with tests by the time I finished college, but tests are a part of life in all aspects. You fail a subject and you have to keep trying again. Same thing with life, you fall and you have to get back up again, there is NO other choice.

I guess the taxi driver liked my positive attitude and conversation that he charged me less than the meter and even stopped the meter for me..and he blessed my day.

Happy Tuesday!

Love

-R

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A Time for Everything

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:

a time to be born, and a time to die;

a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;

a time to kill, and a time to heal;

a time to break down, and a time to build up;

a time to weep, and a time to laugh;

a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;

a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

a time to seek, and a time to lose;

a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

a time to tear, and a time to sew;

a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

a time to love, and a time to hate;

a time for war, and a time for peace.

Boxing Ring

Ding..Ding..Ding.. GET IN THE RING!

All of life is like being in a boxing ring

You are faced with different opponents, situations, circumstances, that you must overcome to win your battle

Be strong

Who are these opponents that are fighting against you?

They are called “life” opponents

These opponents can make us stronger or crumple you down to your knees

You have the option on how hard you want to fight

How hard you want to live

How hard you want to push

How much you love yourself to keep on sweating and fighting that fight

Sometimes your own opponent and worst critic is yourself

Be strong

The person who loves you most in this world is yourself

Love and protect yourself

Put on your boxing gloves and fight

Fight with all the strength you have

Fight with all your soul and heart

Raise your arms up, protect your face

Fix your eyesight sharply and directly at your opponent

Give your opponent that stare

That stare of strength

That stare of not letting this or anything defeat you

Your gaze and senses are heightened to the oomph degree

You will become more agile than before

You know you will win this

You know you are strong

Look at it in the eye..knowing you will win that fight

Be strong

Love and protect yourself

Over the moon

September 21, 2012 will always be a memorable night in my life forever.

Let me explain the reason why. 

Thalia is a latin pop singer/actress, who in 2008 was also stricken with lyme disease. When I fell ill last year, she was one of my biggest motivators that I will also get better. Her story of being diagnosed with lyme disease and doctors telling her it was depression or anxiety after the birth of her baby..sounded alot like all the other lyme misdiagnosis we always hear.   You can read about her story here: http://lymedisease.org/news/touchedbylyme/thalia.html. In her book “growing stronger”, she also talks a little bit more in detail of her struggles as well as seeing the end of the finish line  to battling her disease.

I listened to her music in the most difficult part of my lyme disease process, even when I didn’t have the strength to dance, I did..to her music even though the next day I would ache and hurt.  Her songs inspired me, pushed me and soothed my heart and soul with love. I remember listening to her music and crying. Crying with a combination of sadness and inspiration from her music and lyrics. It inspired me, that I too will get over this hurdle. 

I entered a contest to win tickets to see her perform live in NYC and won! 

 

I always say things happen for a reason. Who knew that a year later of my lyme diagnosis and feeling better, I would have the chance to see her in concert. She was dancing, jumping, singing, and doing everything a “normal” person would.  She even had a second baby after battling with lyme (which is another inspiration for me, since we would love to have children soon). She triumphed over her lyme disease and she is one of my biggest inspiration of triumphing over this disease.  The biggest accomplishment of the night for me, was that I stood in line with high heels to get in the concert for about 2 hours(standing this long and still feeling well). 

 The concert was wonderful and I am thankful that my struggles brought me to her music. Her music is filled with so much love and joy that it always leaves me feeling really good afterwards.  I enjoyed a night of music, love with my mom and sister in law and over all a sense that I too will win this battle shortly. Thank you Thalia for touching my life in a positive way and  for touching so many people’s lives.

Life has surprising twists and turns…a memorable night that I will always remember.

I leave you with this wonderful picture of the Empire State Building that I took while standing in line..such a beautiful building (I couldn’t stop staring at it).

-R

Signs of life

I have always been that type of person that has been aware of my surroundings, people and things around me, but now even more than ever I appreciate the simple things in life. I laugh at things that I wouldn’t have before, gaze and look at things as if they were new..cherishing and embracing each moment.

Today on my way to work, I saw this written on the subway escalator “SMILE” and immediately took out my iphone to take a picture of it and SMILED.

I feel like I am getting alot of signs everywhere.   Sometimes when my mind is wondering and overthinking, I am distracted by a bird flying by or a beautiful flower or rose  in a garden. I feel like these signs and signals that I experience now more than ever is being aware to stop and appreciate all the beauty that life offers us.

More on signs of life…The other day I was walking on the street and there were 3 woman walking infront of me, one of the woman’s friend who I was in back of said to her friend “Michelle, watch your back”(since she saw that I wanted to walk in front of them since they were blocking the street in a way). Michelle, moved aside and as she did I said “Thank you Michelle”. She smiled and said “you’re welcome, have a blessed day”. That made my day. Little signs and signals that are occuring to me everyday that make me happy.

What signs are you presented with in your daily life and do you embrace them or recognize them? Life hands us signs all the time, we just need to be aware of them.

Letter

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Dear Magnificent Body:

 
You have been with me since birth.
When I was 4 and my foot got stuck in the bicycle and I fractured it..you healed.
When I was 10 and was jumping up and down and fell..it took a few days for you to heal my sprained foot.
When I was 12 and my hair got stuck in a machine in wood workshop class..not only did my hair grow back but you healed me emotionally from that trauma.
You were there for me you healed.
When I was in my college years and tortured you with stress, lack of sleep and horrible food, you tolerated it. 
When my dad had open heart surgery a few years back and my emotions were all over the place like a roller-coaster ride, you stuck me with me. 
 
During these hard times, I have faith in you that you will do the same for me like you did before. 
You are strong and you will eventually heal.
This actually will make you stronger.
Change your character and make you wiser.
 
This letter is for you, It’s an oath to you.
I promise to feed you well.
Eat the best I can and tell you each day how much I love you and appreciate you.
I may have taken you for granted before and for that I am truly sorry.
I promise once this is all over with I will treat you differently and respect you until the end of our time together.
You will truly teach me how wonderful and magnificent you are even through ups and down.
 
This letter is for you.
 
Even if I don’t say it enough,I love you, I truly love you.
 
Love,
Me

Train Ride Home

Invisible Illness

Today on the train ride home I saw a disabled man in a wheelchair must have been in his early 30’s with no legs and no arms.

I started thinking how some illnesses or diseases are visible while others like lyme disease are not.

Here I am a 29 year year old woman, I look in great shape from the outside but  people don’t see or feel what I feel.

At times I feel trapped in my own body.

A body that was once so agile to run, walk fast and jump..not anymore for now..atleast not for now.

My illness is invisible and all seems well.

With a visible illness or impairment people notice and sometimes judge.

What is better, to have a visible or invisible illness, there are pros and cons to both sides of the coin no matter how you look at it.